Eek.
I had to get blood taken two weeks ago, and it wasn’t fun. Exactly 5 tubes. 3 were big, 2 were tiny. I’m being tested for a lot of things. While I was at the doctor, I was also told that I will not grow anymore. I’m only 5’0. Not that tall. But I’ve always been told my softball coaches that my height is perfect considering I’m a catcher, and that means I can crouch into tinier positions. I was also told that I could have grown more if I had went to the doctor when I first started my period at age 9. They said it would have allowed me to grow more and they said there would have been a chance I wouldn’t have gained weight. Some of the tests they are running on me are weight related. They think they can put me on pills to help control my weight. They also said that it was good that I hadn’t gained any weight in the last two years. When I went to the doctor my weight was 187. Its getting up there, but also take into consideration that aunt flow was in town. Sometimes I think I’d be happier if they found something wrong with me. But I don’t want to think like that. I want to be healthy, and the thought of having a problem scares me. If I do have a problem, they say they can fix it. That might make me feel better about the reason why I’m so big, but then if I don’t, I’ll feel disappointed because its my fault that I’m the way I am. I’ve always ate healthy, and exercised regularly. I was an active kid growing up. Heck, I live for the outdoors. So I’m just so confused. What can I do to make myself lose weight?
